Trust in Him

I was reading a daily devotional this morning, and it talked about how one's true character is revealed during periods of trials, and how one handles his or herself during this time as opposed to when everything is going great. I can still pinpoint that exact moment when it was spoken to me and only me from the Holy Spirit the words " Trust in Him", and I remembered my response was "of course". Little did I know that by the end of the week I would be terminated from my position of 8 years and that I would spend the next two years fighting unlike anything I was familiar with to stay afloat. I am currently going through a bankruptcy and facing foreclosure although I am currently employed.  It is a new chapter,  but my faith in that this too shall pass concept will not let me stray from knowing that a breakthrough is in the works for me. Despite the works of man, God IS fighting my battles and claiming a victorious end. All that has taken place over the past 2 years has been done for my good. It seems at times that it is difficult to understand and accept, I know that His plans for me are far greater than anything I can conjure on my own. So I continue to take on the obstacles one by one, and as long as I continue to hold on to my faith and perform actions aligned with that, there is nothing to fear or worry. God has control of this.

I'm Still Standing

Like many people, I look for inspiration in many things. My passion for music is probably the greatest source of motivation in my life. Timeless songs, insightful lyrics and/or a hypnotizing beat speaks to me like a Sunday morning sermon.
A couple of days ago, I was getting ready for work, and my mind wandered to the thoughts of where my life is settled at this moment. It has been almost a year since I was let go from my job, and although I have a job currently, it is not enough to meet the demands of my bills. Along with job also went the health insurance, which is desperately needed right now. I visit  my former workplace from time to time to handle personal business, and I see the manager that issued my walking papers. Now, this is someone that I can honestly say I do not trust because in one breath he can say that he would not deny me unemployment, and the next breath you are contesting me obtaining my unemployment. When you dismissed me, I was not bitter, and when I continue to grace my presence in your face, I am just smiling enjoying life. Last week, I had to pull into the parking lot to gather my things for that days activities, and I could feel the disgust that I am not suffering. That rested in my thoughts for a long time, until a few mornings ago these lyrics slapped me in my face;

I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the piece of my life without you on my mind
I'm still Standing

That I exactly where am right now. I am coming back again. It may not be instant but my drive will not let me die in spirit.

Starting Over

If someone was to have told me that when I turned 40, I would have a difficult time restarting my life, my finances and my career, I would have thought that they would have mistaken me for someone else. Unfortunately, it IS my life at this moment.
It is not important how this came to be. What's important is that by faith and hard work, this moment, along with many others, will become pivotal in reaching heights I never thought I would reach, and by sharing my journey, my thoughts and my experiences, I will reach out to others that have been suddenly assaulted with a hard blow to their life and show how you don't have to be a special human to be able to turn things around, because Lord knows I am not.