Like many people, I look for inspiration in many things. My passion for music is probably the greatest source of motivation in my life. Timeless songs, insightful lyrics and/or a hypnotizing beat speaks to me like a Sunday morning sermon.
A couple of days ago, I was getting ready for work, and my mind wandered to the thoughts of where my life is settled at this moment. It has been almost a year since I was let go from my job, and although I have a job currently, it is not enough to meet the demands of my bills. Along with job also went the health insurance, which is desperately needed right now. I visit my former workplace from time to time to handle personal business, and I see the manager that issued my walking papers. Now, this is someone that I can honestly say I do not trust because in one breath he can say that he would not deny me unemployment, and the next breath you are contesting me obtaining my unemployment. When you dismissed me, I was not bitter, and when I continue to grace my presence in your face, I am just smiling enjoying life. Last week, I had to pull into the parking lot to gather my things for that days activities, and I could feel the disgust that I am not suffering. That rested in my thoughts for a long time, until a few mornings ago these lyrics slapped me in my face;
I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the piece of my life without you on my mind
I'm still Standing
That I exactly where am right now. I am coming back again. It may not be instant but my drive will not let me die in spirit.
